I found youn in my mind

I FOUND YOU IN MY DISTANT MIND

I was thinking and feeling something within me speak,

Wondering how I could help you.

Today, at a distance, I still don't know what to say.

Should I apologize,

Feel everything that has passed,

Every achievement, and all the warmth?

I am trapped within myself,

I feel the bell vibrate,

My heart pulsates,

My hand trembles,

And a tear falls from my eye.

What have I made of myself?

What could I learn?

Don’t you see that time has passed

and separated us?

I know too that we won't come together again.

I can feel the melancholy reach me,

I can feel the same urge to cry.

Even recognizing the distance,

even recognizing the sorrow,

I thought I loved, but I didn't know how to love.

I thought being present would fix everything,

but I suffocated it,

I made myself bleed.

I wore out a friendship,

lost an opportunity,

and now I see myself crying

just by remembering.

Yet, I did learn something from all this:

a lesson, a forgiveness, and a desire to make things right.

I feel sorry for the time,

I am grateful for the time,

I pray today for time,

and I carry on with my life,

healing my wounds,

seeking to be my best self.

Away from the weight, the guilt, and the pain,

I need to feel true love.

And before being worthy,

I must now work.

Only then will I reach,

only then will I change,

only then will I know what it is to love.